Today I woke up and thought I should write to you, my friend. It’s been a crazy year for me, and it’s just August. Can you imagine? I hope things are pretty well over there ( won’t be surprised if they ain’t, I’ve been through the same circle lately). But hey, let’s get to business. You know I was thinking about us like honestly, I missed you. I don’t know what to do: I’m stuck between faith and hope, letting go and holding on, pushing people away and keeping them close. It’s just a lot to process. My brain is small and I wonder how all these thoughts fit in. I’ve thought for sometimes, I realised I need God, not because I didn’t have him, but because I was far from him. Don’t tell me the same story? ( Again, I won’t be surprised cause things ain’t what they used to be) Forget about that, my point here is to remind you, well and remind myself that tomorrow will be better than today. As I write to you, thoughts keep running in my head. And I think I will choose both: faith and hope,
I used to and now I’m over that! I think I learnt the hard way. Firstly, I felt alone. I could not fathom myself. So, I thought maybe social media will rescue me from emptiness. Little did I know, it’s another whole journey of stress and more emptiness. Talking 24/7 to people I never met gave me a good feeling, initially. It was an escape for me from what I call “My stress.” Those peals of laughter at times took me away to another place, a higher place. But sooner or later, I started to question myself. What if I invest my time talking to people in person, will I still feel the same? But I couldn’t. My mind wasn’t ready to let me leave that world- the world that gave me pleasure. My soul was ready to embark on another trip -away from social pressure. The fight between the two left me in awe. I didn’t know who to follow. Honestly, I was tired of social pressure. It’s always about competition or maybe was just my observation. That pressure to show whatever you got to others. Your money